Day 10 : A picture that you or your significant other took on webcam or cell phone

**Check out that tan line!!! :)

Talking to Jason when he was in Thailand.

Loving on those tan lines! This amazing guy of mine waited in line EVERY day to talk to me!...Im beginning to think he doesnt care as much! lol JKKKKK...I know hes busy and the situation is a little different this time which sucks but I know he loves me and I hope he knows just how much I love him...

Day 9: A picture of your favorite thing that you or your significant other has made and tell what it is.

This is a blanket that Jason made for me before he left for training... I absolutely love it! Also in the picture (but really small) are his name tapes that I have made into a bracelet and wear with pride! I'm so proud of my marine!

Yesterday was so exciting because I FINALLY got an email from Jason! I cannot even begin to describe how happy it made me to hear from him as it has almost been a wholeeeeee week! I don't know how the military wives do it! I am sure it will take some getting use to and I know this is kinda our first REAL time apart considering when he was away for training before, I got pretty lucky and pretty much talked to him every day....he spoils me :) I love him so much and miss him more than anything right now and I constantly find myself checking my email to see if I have heard anything...buttttt nothing.... Oh goodness this month needs to go by fast! I cannot wait until I am in his arms again!

Day 8 : A picture that is your favorite from deployment, or if he hasn’t been deployed yet, a picture of see you laters, him coming home, or him deployed, and tell why it is your favorite.

love this picture because its a picture of Jason and his "other woman" lol and two of his best friends that mean the world to him! These are some of the greatest guys and I am so glad that he has them in his life and that I have had the pleasure of meeting them! (ignore the middle finger lol)

Day 7 : A picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your significant other being in the military.

A picture of Blair and her marine!

Breandy!....(Breanne and Andy...cant wait to see them when I come visit again!)

Heather, a sister from the CW and a fellow boilermaker! 

Jess! Love her!

These are pictures of some of the most amazing people I have met since being introduced to the military (marine) life....I dont know what I would do without them! 

Also everyone on the CW who I left out! I LOVE YOU ALL!

Day 6 : A picture of the base your man is at and tell 5 cool things about that base.

This is a picture of the transient barracks I believe *which is where we stayed when I visited! :)

ahhh I miss it so much! (You can see the ocean in the background too!)

1. All MALE... 2. Beautiful beach 3. Home of the 4th Marine Regiment 4. It was dedicated in 1959 in honor of Albert E. Schwab who was killed in action during the battle of Okinawa. 5. There is a small little PX with awesome trinkets...and some great restaurants with taco rice right off the base! lol (not sure what else!)

Day 5 : A picture of the branch he is in and list your favorite thing about him being in the military.

I miss him so much and I love that he is doing what he loves.

He truly is my hero and I miss him so much every day.

Not being able to hear his voice is killing me but I know in time, everything will be ok. Sooner or later we will be together and it will all be for good reason that we are apart.

Semper Fi!

Day 4 - A picture of the family he had to leave behind to protect his country.

Jason and his family as we said goodbye at the airport...that was the hardest day...I was falling in love with someone so fast and they were leaving to go thousands of miles away...I don't think I really spoke to anyone that entire day. I was completely numb and had no idea what to think, do, or say. It was such a relief to know that he was back in Japan safe and sound and that I could finally hear his voice and see him on skype.

I kind of feel the same way right now because it has been 3 days since I have heard from him which I know is nothing compared to most couples in military relationships but I miss his voice, i miss everything that makes me smile...I miss him so much...and school is so crazy right now and stressful and I have no idea how to cope with all of this because the one person that can cheer me up is so far away and un-contact-able....I just wish I could hear his voice. Every time I hear that sound that notifies you when you get an email on your iPhone, I get so excited hoping, praying that it is him...but every fricken time, its nothing but junk mail or class/purdue email....I am so stressed and completely looking forward to this weekend and going home for break the only thing is that I really am not sure if I ever want to go back....going to oki again after this next month, its going to be hard for me to come home. I honestly do not know how much more of this I can take...I am at my breaking point and I can only think of one thing that will make all this stress go away, and thats to be with him...but I don't have that option (at least according to my parents)....I am so lost...

Day 3: A picture of how you met (for example, computer for you met online, school for you met in high school), and tell the date you met. Did you know then that you’d be where you are with him today?

Technically met at BDubs through Jason's brother but really connected while playing pool at a local bar!...We met in late december of 2010 (after I was able to breathe from taking exams) and officially started dating January 1, 2011 (1/1/11) :) I knew I was in love with him the moment I said goodbye at the airport....probably the hardest thing I ever had to do! But never did I expect it to be so perfect (minus the distance). Never in my life have I ever been so happy...

Day 2: A picture of you and your military SO being silly

At the beach on the fourth of July in Naha, Oki....an AMAZING day!
(not sure why I was squeezing his face though!)

Day 1: A picture with your military SO & 10 facts about him

*Officially left today :( my countdown to see him officially starts!




Ten Facts About My Marine:
1. He loveeeees spaghetti
2. Loves Rock, hates rap
3. Hates to dance but going to make him anyway!
4. His favorite color is RED
5. Loves BBT, How I met your mother, and Chuck
6. His birthday is 6-7-89
7. Always loses to his gf in bowling ;)
8. A computer nerd...(my very own nerd herder! lol)
9. Loves Halo and always kicks butt...
10. Is the most amazing guy out there and would do anything for anyone!

A Matter of Time...

The one thing that I absolutely cannot stand is not knowing the answers to things when they first pop into my head. The waiting and anxiety drive me nuts! I sit there with a million things going on in my head and not one of them I know the answer to...then before I know it, my mind becomes so clouded with thoughts that I cannot even pinpoint exactly what the problem is but it is still there and there is no way to get rid of it...where to begin....

Our Relationship, Our Future, My Future, His Future
I hate not knowing the final answer from my professors as to if I can go to visit him for the Ball. I want more than anything to go and I find myself looking up ticket prices but there is only one thing stopping me...MY PROFESSORS. Part of me just wants to buy them because the prices keep on going up! But when to buy the tickets?! Will he be back in time? Should I plan for a little later when I do not miss as much school BUT the tickets are much more expensive due to a holiday weekend? AHHHH

I know that I want to be with him for the rest of my life. I have never met anyone like him and I hate that I cannot fully share all this joy, experience, and happiness with my entire family. I absolutely HATE it. I hate that I have a family that loves to try and control my life when at the same time I AM AN ADULT. They have no business in my life, yet I constantly share everything with them. I can't anymore and I want to so bad. I feel like I want to drive home right this instant and tell them that I am going to see Jason, that I want to MARRY Jason and that if they honestly have a problem with it then I will give them one last hug and kiss and say goodbye. I love my family but their attitudes and mindset are completely out of line and so old fashion. I know they only want the best for me but what they don't understand is that he IS the best! I cannot wait and hope to spend the rest of my life with him. I cannot picture myself with anyone else. No one has ever made me this happy. And the thing is, maybe my grandmother HAS actually come to a realization, I DONT KNOW (and this too drives me nuts!). I just want to go home tomorrow and get all this happiness, excitement, and love out in the open and not let people bring him or I down anymore. He is amazing in every way and does not deserve it. The way my family has acted, I don't think they deserve to meet him. All that matters is our love, happiness, and every second that we spend together whether physically together or thousands of miles apart.

I cannot even begin to describe the happiness I feel. I have never felt like I could marry tomorrow until now. I honestly cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him and it drives me nuts not knowing how, when, or if he will propose. I know we have talked about it but I just can't believe it. I guess until I physically see it, or even maybe until it's on my finger, I will truly believe.
Can this really be happening?
Did I really find the guy of my dreams?

Thinking about our future constantly makes me wonder...
Does his parents like me? Will they support our engagement?
When will we get married? Will the entire family be there?
How are my parents going to pay for a wedding?
Will I have a good enough job? Or go to grad school? What if my major is a lost cause?
Are my grades going to be ok?
Will we even have the money for grad school?
Will he re-enlist? go reserve? College?
Where will we live?
What if neither of us can find jobs? Will I be a House-mom?


So many questions..and "WHAT IFS" and I hate that I do this to myself but it is constantly what I do. I simply ask these questions and try to make back up plans for back up plans! It sounds so stupid! And I feel like when I start to think of all these questions, I am busy doing something else and it just lingers in my mind until I can go home and google the answers, and even worse when the answers really aren't google-able...OR the person who can actually answer these questions, is not around at the moment. I hate waiting for answers...

Why can't life be a little more simple?
I wish everything was black and white
Everything could be laid out for us and WE choose our future....
So many things are dependent on outside sources yet I wish this wasn't the case.

Missing Him

Today I woke up 

And thought of you.

I had breakfast

And thought of you.

I went shopping

And thought of you.

I went to lunch

And thought of you.

I went to work 

And thought of you.

I went home in the evening

And thought of you.

No matter where I go,

No matter what I do,

You are always in my thoughts

And in my dreams.

Even though we can't be

Together right now

You are the most important

Part of my nights and days.

You are the person I trust

my life with,

The person I always want 

To be with.

Thoughts ON Thursday*

Well today started off like a normal day except for being sleep deprived! (Thank you toddlers and tiaras!)...couldn't wait to get home from work and take a nap when I realized that I had a voicemail from the florists saying they had a delivery for me and couldn't find where I lived!

Here are the BEAUTIFUL flowers that Jason sent!

Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve such an amazing boyfriend. He is all I ever think about and have ever hoped for. I feel like it took me one heck of a long time to find him (and a ton of heartbreaks) but it was all worth it and now everything feels right. I cannot wait to be in his arms again...I love you Jason!

"God Bless The Broken Road, That Led Me Straight To You"