Day 4 - A picture of the family he had to leave behind to protect his country.

Jason and his family as we said goodbye at the airport...that was the hardest day...I was falling in love with someone so fast and they were leaving to go thousands of miles away...I don't think I really spoke to anyone that entire day. I was completely numb and had no idea what to think, do, or say. It was such a relief to know that he was back in Japan safe and sound and that I could finally hear his voice and see him on skype.

I kind of feel the same way right now because it has been 3 days since I have heard from him which I know is nothing compared to most couples in military relationships but I miss his voice, i miss everything that makes me smile...I miss him so much...and school is so crazy right now and stressful and I have no idea how to cope with all of this because the one person that can cheer me up is so far away and un-contact-able....I just wish I could hear his voice. Every time I hear that sound that notifies you when you get an email on your iPhone, I get so excited hoping, praying that it is him...but every fricken time, its nothing but junk mail or class/purdue email....I am so stressed and completely looking forward to this weekend and going home for break the only thing is that I really am not sure if I ever want to go back....going to oki again after this next month, its going to be hard for me to come home. I honestly do not know how much more of this I can take...I am at my breaking point and I can only think of one thing that will make all this stress go away, and thats to be with him...but I don't have that option (at least according to my parents)....I am so lost...